I was talking to a friend today and it made me remember something to be thankful for regarding my profession as an escort. Its funny how the different experiences in my life have lead me down various pathways. Its almost like the tree of life with all her branches.
I thought about what positive things this industry has brought into my life. I thought about the reasons why I entered it. I was so down and lacking self esteem when I started and in a way it was my clients that saved me. They saved me from myself. From the self destructive path I was on. Each and every one of them helped me to regain my confidence back. Because of them I realised that I wasn't such a bad person after all. They made me realise that I was the master of my own destiny.
I'm a firm believer of, when one door closes, a whole corridor opens. We all come to that cross roads along our own individual journeys. We worry that we are taking the wrong path but the truth is there is no wrong path. Each road leads to a different destination with many more lessons to learn. The journey may be hard and unforgiving at times but if we listen to our instincts we will find fulfillment. Its not how empty is our glass but how full it is that counts. The most important thing is that we focus on what we have to learn. There is no such thing as a mistake. Its how we look at the events in our lives and how we can go about improving what happened before. I guess that's the secret to wisdom. If you keep repeating unhappy situations in your life then you are obviously evolving at a pace that you choose comfortable for you.
Being an escort opened my eyes to the many guys out there that come from different backgrounds, with varying professions, single, married, in relationships all having their own story to tell. I became their confidant, someone whom they could spend more than just intimacy with. Someone who would listen to their woes, their joys and their everyday lives. For once I was able to focus on something else, rather than my problems for a change. I started to realise that mine were so much more insignificant compared to theirs. In some way they all touched my life, some more so than others.
I remember a client I had once who had been in a car accident. He was in a wheelchair and he had obviously suffered head injuries due to the accident. He was a regular of a club that I worked for and I was sent on an out call to his premises one afternoon. When I arrived he was ready and waiting patiently. I discovered that he was just as together as he had been before the accident.
After we had spent some intimate time together we sat down to chat. He told me what had happened, that he was involved in an accident involving a drunken driver. He being the innocent party of course. He had been very active in sport and outdoor activities and after the accident he was pretty depressed. When he regained consciousness he realised he was paralysed from the waist down and suffering from a speech impairment due to the head injury. He told me how he made a conscious decision that he wasn't going to let what happened to him hinder him from living his life to the fullest. His decision to push himself to get better was his ultimate goal. Obviously he would never get back to how he was before the accident. I really admired him for his courage. He showed me all his photo albums of all the activities he used to do. He was a really attractive guy. He became my regular. What a neat guy he was. I saw him often when I lived in Wellington but when I moved back to Auckland we lost touch. I often think about him and how he is, what hes doing. I'm so thankful for having the opportunity of him being in my life and touching my heart the way he did.
There have been many others along the way that I can remember that I have fond thoughts of, all for different reasons and how they touched my heart. In some way they have enhanced my life and me to be a better person. The way in which they treated me was special. I always thought that escorts were treated with disrespect. I was so wrong. Almost every guy I had treated me with total respect, like a feeling caring human being, which I am. I so appreciated that. They complimented me on many things about myself and made me realise that I was not the horrible person that my partner had led me to believe. I started to have faith in myself in realising my own self worth.
I think becoming an escort made me less judgemental about other people. It made me take a look at some of my own thought patterns and I'm a different person now because of it. I think it helped me to find peace and not be so anxious about life and what may or may not unfold tomorrow. I realised that I needed to be more grateful for what I had and focus on the positive aspects of my work. I soon discovered that there were many.
So to all of those guys I have met along the way who have been clients of mine or even social contacts I just want to say thank you. Thanks for helping me to rediscover myself!!! Love and respect to you all.
Georgia XO
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